i'm more Awesome then you!!

 "Is this the way my life has come to be? look at me, look at me, is this the way i've always been this way?here i am, here i am, why wont someone understand?" 

this past 2 weeks have been kinda tough on me,
but i'll survive.  :)

met up with cherine at serangoon gardens today. :)
before that was at orchard. the centre for all post-christmas sales. HAHA
it was so crowded and messed up. i didnt even buy anything for goodness sake.
but astons and disposable cameras made up for it!
disposable camera ROCKS okay.




and, happy holidays
from Me, Cherine and Lucy Ma Kra Kra. :)
HHAHHA!

heres a holiday surprise.
to all of you out there! :)

Really funny erm Quotes??

taken from natee's blog http://strawberry-waltz.blogspot.com
(seriously funny!!)

Funny Moments Of The Day

Xinyi: *cheering for Chunhui* GO CHUNHUI! GO!
Logan: Its not GO Chunhui, its GAO.
(chunhui's surname is Gao)

Logan: People will always wait to kiss me.
Firdaus: People don't wait to kiss me, they just do it.

*whilst shopping for items we need for our event title filming*
Xinyi: If we can't find it, we can go strangle ourselves and sell ourselves to the library so people can borrow us.

*in creative writing class, when we're supposed to create a story out of sequenced images*
Natee: Firdaus, what story you're gonna write about?
Firdaus: A holy one.

Jiaen: Eh Logan I didn't know you were a left hander.
Logan: Yes I am.
Jiaen: But people say that left handers are smart people
Mr Alex: HUH WHERE GOT SUCH THING.
*Logan gives Mr Alex a deadly stare*



HAHAHA.
i swear i thought logan's line "people wait to kiss me" BUT FIRDAUS ONE WAS CLASSIC I SWEAR!! almost choke when i heard it!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA


and i just wanna add.

Bend and fall!
Walk away and DIE!!
(ok. seriously inside joke)
HAHAHAH

i have become Obsessed over the world most retarded game ever.
(but its so cute! ) HAHAHAHAH

awwwwwwwww.
paperbag and melon queens!! HAHHAHAHAHA

there goes another day.
who knows what will happen tomorrow

maybe i'll go crazy in this house.
maybe i'll jump off the ledge
maybe i'll just lie on the floor and think
maybe i'll empty my cupboards and run away
maybe i'll hide in a corner and scream
maybe everything will finally end.

maybe.


everyday is just beautiful isnt it.


goodbye.

Its november 13. wow. was expecting a little more wow in it though.
(damn. sld have bought sparklers for myself so i can dance ard my room with it to add more BAM! )
HAHHAHAHAHAHAH

well, its gonna be one fabulously awesome day for everyone cause its my special day and im sharing it with everone. :)

loves
xinyi.

Weekends were fun!
sat i attended a wedding and
Sun, celebrated my 18th brthday!!!
so AWESOME! HAHHAA
It was a high tea buffet at shangri-la's  rose veranda!!







 Happy Birthday to me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHHAHA. natee intro me this website photofunia.com.
which lead to this

MY DEBUT ALBUM RELEASE.. (after chyari-e broke up, i started my solo career dumping the whole jap look and choosing a more awesome me version where all songs and images has either my name or my picture. including my first song, Xinyi which is dedicated to me and hit the bilboard number 1 within 3mins.)HAHA

my debut album. Xinyi for real. HAHA

Spot me.

Front page. must be important. wonder what it's about. HAHAHAH



Even paris hilton LOVES my album. she's like my biggest fan. (total stalker)
OMG! i just saw her jumping up and down outside my window. gosh. when will she ever stop.




Nothing like a beautiful picture to light up the streets. HAHA

i've even prepared my speech for the grammys

*snatches grammy away from presenter*
i knew no one can beat me
so well, this really didnt come as a surprise.

*smiles and blinks eyes non-stop*

i know you all love me.

*bask self in self admiration for the nxt 10 secs*

oh ya. erm. first of all i would like to thank ME, MYSELF & I
and those who helped me so far.
my family,
Natee for introducing me to photofunia. you have helped me achieve this dream of mine. Without you, none of this would have happened.
Je for being there and creating the flower pot with me. you were my closest chyari-e buddy.
Cherine for taking the album art, no one could make me look as awesome like you do. vice versa.
Kexin for always shaking her head and not knowing what to say when she sees me doing such stuff.
my dog pineapple. who got ran over buy a truck, i will always love you.
Jesse who i know knows me and loves me but have yet to gather the courage to tell me how much you love me.

*tears rolling down my face as i walk off and thousands of people cheer for me*

HHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!

Who am i?

Xinyi is my name and have always believed that someone has been watching me all my life and this someone I am referring to is mainly not so friendly creatures such as vampires boogeyman and many more as I happen to believe in myths and legends about the extraordinary and supernatural magical creatures except aliens which I believe is a ridiculous figment of imagination created to please the filmmakers of star wars and I have never thought that believing in magical creatures such as unicorns would lead to being ridiculed about but I am still living in this magical world of mine which is filled with emotions imagination and thoughts that I have created in my mind since young to escape reality which I had found at certain times hard to face but having the ability to find joy in the smallest of things can just bring me from a dark gloomy mood to one that is full of magic and sunshine such as  the color pink or the most gorgeous shoes sitting on the shelves untouched looking like it was practically created for me with a discount tag or even doing this essay but that’s not all as there is so many other things that I love and if I were to write a list then it would be never ending because I believe that there are more things in life to love than to hate but deep inside of me is filled with so many different emotion that I can feel my heart crumble bit by bit but all these are just experience in life that everyone faces and nothing like an ice cold bottle of coke to get over it and bask myself in self glory with such pride and amazement that many would never dare to and I have to admit that at times I get a little too infatuated with myself and starts picturing my name up in lights or embossed in gold for a little chuckle as I believe that there is nothing more important then a good laugh which could be at something silly or not as long as it was a real laugh and not one of those laugh you do to make others happy and I would definitely say that HAHAHA is one of my life mottos and personal quotes but when it comes to people in my life sadly I have to say that I cannot imagine sharing all my thoughts to another soul or even being so close to another as I believe that we were all created so differently and that no one can truly understand you except yourself and it is easy to let one in and out of your life but hard to forever let them go and all you realize is that the people around you are just leaving their marks on you as you leave your marks on them and soon it will register that you are fighting this battle alone and with another bottle of coke I would get over it and back into my world of imagination where my favourite animal is the unicorn and that the world is glamourous once again with radiance and the shine of magical creatures and fantasy or entrance by some fashion magazine that I have read 26 times in a row and still get dazzled by it


absolutely NO punctuation.

okay.
this is just something that has been on my mind for quite sometime. actually, its been on my mind for like EVER.
this world we live in.right now. at this very moment, is extremely different from lets say 13 years ago.
what im trying to say is that look around us. i dont see honesty or compassion or anything else.
mainly, people's attitude. look at china, their people were willing to put the whole next generation at risk just to earn a quick buck. its their own people they're killing and with the whole 1 child policy going on, killing and destroying the organs of a kid is just cruel. even if they survive, these thousands of kids will not lead a normal life. and dont forget, without them, there's no next next generation. you might as well kill the entire civillisation of chinese.
whosoever you are, you have destroyed your country's rep, economy etc, think about it. perhaps its not just one of you. it could be 10, 20 or hundreds.
i believe that you dont give a shit about it. but, these are your own people. and you deserve to die.

and its not just china. look at singapore.
our own people dont even respect each other.
you walk into a store and if the sale assistance is a singaporean (so are you) the way she treats you will be completely different from how she will treat someone who happens to be paler, hairier, fatter, hair that looks like spagetti and from the other half of the world. (i think you get what im saying.)
you people treat them like god, and your own people like dirt. excuse me, but they are not god. and if you cant even treat your own people nice, what makes you think we will treat you nice.by the way, they think you are a joke. so, stop making a fool of yourself.
why would others respect you if you dont even respect your own people.

and FYI, the other half of the world's company like branded goods can earn so much is because of the asians (mainly china people) some designer once said, "we believe that soon, 70percent of our profit will be earned from china"

and i believe that.

so, stop disrespecting and killing each other. its time to go against the other half.
cause this time, we are the gods.

the past 3 weeks have been hard.
but its all over. no more stress, no more worry, enough of inner screaming, enough of this whole thing.
time to let everything out and just relax.




time to enjoy and just be me.
to do whatever i want and whatever i like.

Cafe de mal. Sentosa. Cosmopolitan. Awesome people.
 

i feel happy.

HAVE YOU SEEN THIS PERSON?

HAHHAHAHAHA

im here to say this.
a man lol loudly yesterday in a theatre.
i shant go into full detail of him (mainly cause i didnt see who he was)